When approached about my profession, I find myself becoming hesitant. Though I feel no shame, embarrassment, nor shyness about my work, I always take a moment to pause and think about what the "correct" answer would be.
I am many things. An adult store employee would be the simple version of my profession, and usually gets an amusing reaction, but doesn't satisfy my own definition. Sometimes I am an "adult boutique" employee, as if adding sophistication would put the conversation somewhere at ease. Other times I "work in the adult industry", which although true, is too general and often times gets me confused with other adult professions. And then there are the times I stretch the truth and become a "woman's apparel" employee. This is my least favorite answer, but the one I save for those who would be too faint of heart to learn the truth: my extended family and my parent's co-workers.
At times it feels as though I am "coming out" when talking about my work. That it is something intimate and important that I reveal with hopes of being accepted and encouraged. I have gotten a full range of responses. The blank stares of shock followed by a smirk and a pat on the shoulder. Exited smiles and beckoning over friends to talk about when they can visit me. And of course, the assumption that I am only doing my work in order to pay the bills. As if the economy has forced me into degrading work that if given the choice, I would run from.
Let me tell you a little secret: I've been working here for over a year, before I went broke and before the job market started sucking. There is a stack of over fifty applications from people jumping at the opportunity to work my job under the store counter. People beg me for a position.
I've started this blog as a reflection of the time I have spent in my profession. I don't know how long I will be here, where life will take me, but I would like people to have some insight of what us "sex store workers" actually.
Join me as I delve into my world of sex, intimacy, products, and customers. It's going to be one hell of a ride.